Changes for the New Year?

I will not call these the dreaded "R" word... but as this year comes to a close, definitely thinking about changes I need to make, and some that I want to make, in the new year. But people always like reading these, right? So here we go:

1. Get/Keep on a regular sleep schedule so I can do a better job of getting to work early, or more on time... long story.
2. Lose weight
3. Take up an instrument... or 3.
4. Make more time to make art. Have shows?
5. Work, AND PUBLISH, a comic. And start the web comic?
6. Finish the personal sites (FB, YR, Zaz...)
7. Work on the home... 
8. Build something of value...
9. Invest less in people who seem to invest less in me. (I know, that sounds pretty heavy...)
10. Take things less seriously. Don't let the "EI" run my life paranoid... again, I know, that sounds pretty heavy. :)

Well, that's it... or at least what I can think of off the top of my head. Ten changes. Nice round number. 12 months. Let's see what happens.

-B

Yup...

Random thought of the day?

Sometimes it's really hard to believe that there's a simple and rational explanation for things. Or I could just be super paranoid?

Wow, almost 2 years...

...since I've posted on this thing?

Well, what's been going on? Well, at the moment, I'm on the East Coast for the annual trek to see family at the Holidays.

But man, I have to tell you this trip has started with a ROUGH start... let's see the day before I left, it snowed. Not a big deal. But in Missouri, the city does a horrible job about the plows, blablabla... long story short, morning I had to leave, definitely underestimated the situation, and there was a lot of ice on the roads, and it took forever to get to the airport.

Well, much longer than what would be the average.

But getting on to airport property, it's becoming more and more clear that I have run out of time to use economy parking, so I make the hard choice to park in terminal parking. The difference? About $18 a day... so that's gonna suck... Doesn't help that part of me is still wondering if I parked straight, or in a spot at all at the airport? The whole lot was covered in snow and ice, so you really couldn't see anything remotely resembling a parking space... but I guess I'll see how that's all gonna shake out when I get back.

But yea, for what felt like almost 12 hours of traveling, it was good to be back East to see family... didn't help though that work was blowing me up the whole way out... and once following up with people, everyone was being evasive... of course I keep telling myself that's all in my head? See there's a medical condition, nothing serious... but I think it can contribute to this paranoia... trying to figure what is what, is always a pain in my ass. But them's the breaks.

Though despite the rough start... one thing I really want right now? I mean, REALLY want right now? Is a smoke. This might sound trivial and childish, my mother knows I smoke.. I just don't like doing it in front of her. And here on day 2 of the trip, missed my window... yes, I think this is what nicotine withdrawral feels like... don't worry no babies on ceilings... though I think I'd really like to see that.

Anyway... as much as I am happy to see family, part of me definitely would like to be back home... but then I start thinking about all this other esoteric bullshit... when then I think goes all the way back to this medical condition... it becomes a weird cycle. Though when I get stuck on this cycle... I can't help but think about an episode of SUPERNATURAL where Dean was going through some shit, and another Hunter was telling him, you got to fake it... you wake up every morning, have your breakfast, yu get dressed, and when you look at yourself in the mirror, you smile. And soon you might start to beleive that smile.

So I guess that's New Year's Resolution Numero Uno - Fake It. Heh, that's a really depressing thought, isn't it?

But yea, fake it. I mean I have so many things to be thankful for. But when it comes to the other shit, that always seems to overshadow everything else at times. Fake it. Ride it out. And lay the chips fall where they may...

...or something like that.

But holy fuck. Do I really want a smoke.

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On track...

So I realize I haven't posted here in a while. But as I look back on some of these posts, I see my New Year's Resolutions, and I realize I am on track with my goals for the year. And I gotta say that is a damn fine feeling.

Let's just see if I can keep the momentum going.

:)

Places I want to visit/do before I die...

San Diego Comic-Con, France, The Wizarding World of Harry Potter, Italy, Hawaii, Greece, Prague, Australia, England, China, New Zealand, Korea, Tahiti, and another visit to Japan.

First up?

SAN DIEGO COMIC-CON!

Scribbles for the evening...

Crazy4Cult 4

I gotta say, I would love to be part of a show like this. Maybe add this to the goals for 2011, haha. But yea, check out this behind the scenes for a great show in LA.

Video Game - E3 2011

For your viewing pleasure...

So if you know me, you know I am a big geek. That and that I have joked from time to time if I ever dated someone who was into Star Trek, I would propose on the spot.

That said, I think I am in love.

Well, not really, clearly I am joking, because this girl looks like she's 12. But if you're into Star Trek, you listen to the lyrics they're pretty accurate... yes, I just vetted a fan made pop song... Don't judge me.

Well first mishap...

...of the 2011 Year of Change.

So one o the goals this year is to be better about money. Made a budget, have a plan... and I don't know what happened... missed an expense to log or something? But, let's just say there's a blip. And not sure where it is.

I knew January and February I would be in the red to catch up from XMAS... but still, the next 4 days till payday are going to be long and dark.

New Year Resolutions

Yea, it's that time of year again, and seeing what we can do to make the life better. I mean, really can't expect anyone else to do it, right? Though that would be nice, haha.

Anyway, here it goes:

1) Broadsroke: get my shit in order. Mainly meaning: home, life, money, career. But we'll get into all of that.
2) Get my finances in order. Sure planning for my future. But I need to be better about my budgeting, about my debt. Just need to get that in order.
3) Start to build my home. I need to get rid of the college decor, my home needs to become a home.
4) Cut back on smoking.
5) Cut back on soda.
6) Lose weight.
7) Workout more.
8) Put on a gallery show.
9) Publish a comic.
10) Get the balls to do something about my dating life.

And that's pretty much it. Too much? Maybe. But we'll give it a go.

Well back to KC...

Well the Christmas is coming to an end, and I head back to KC tomorrow. I have to say it's always a little bittersweet. I guess you can only take so much time with family... but at the sametime you can't help but miss them. And in my case, there are things I worry about, and wish I was here, so I can look after and support them...

But I go back home tomorrow. I will miss them always. But 2011 is a new year... let's see if we can make this the one where it all comes together.

If I don't blog before New Year's, well, HAPPY NEW YEAR kids!

TRON Legacy, Round 3

I liked 'Tron Legacy' well enough the first time out. Then a good buddy of mine asked me if I would see it with him, second time out, got a little more nit-picky. Now I am visiting family for the holidays, and my older brother wants to see it, and all I can think about is a Penny-Arcade strip:




Right now, that sums up how I feel about the movie. The things we do for family.

PS - this strip was used without permission, so you should check out Penny Arcade at: http://www.penny-arcade.com and expose yourself to their hilarity. Just sayin'

Christmas.

Yea, I gotta say... this year's Christmas has left me pretty bummed out and angry. As for the how's and why's? Well, you don't get to hear that. But it's not something superficial like no body sending me a Christmas card... just has left me pretty bummed. And I am not entirely sure what I am supposed to do with that.

But there it is.

Social Networking.

So we all have people we meet, and befriend along the way of our life. And sometimes whatever brings you together, holds you together, no longer binds you, and those relationships drift.

So why is this important?

Well, a lot of holiday parties this season, and I would run into a lot of old aqauintences. And they would tell me, "Dude, I am so happy you're so active on Facebook, I feel like we've been keeping in touch!"

FUCK THAT!

Haha, I am half tempted to shut down all my accounts, and force people to call every now and again!

But with my luck, they'd probably text. :)

Korean AdSense

Haha, it's funny, I have a vague idea about how Google AdSense works. You drop in the banner code. Then AdSense spiders your blog, and serves up ads relevant to your blog.

Okay.

So explain to me why a Korean banner ad came up? And by that, I mean, in Korean. Yes, I am Korean, but definitely to not blog about being Korean. The only Korean in this blog is in the header, and it's an image, with no tag.

Now, don't get me wrong. Not mad. I just think it's really funny. And if you really know, I think you might appreciate why.

Anyway, it's Christmas boys and girls. And those of you who celebrate this holiday, I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas. And those of you who do not rock this holiday, well, I hope you've had a very wonderful holiday season with your loved ones.

Anyway, that was it. Till the next blog... and there's news in the pipeline... I'll see you around.

Take my balls internet. Damn you.

You know it's a little depressing when the internet tells you there are no good matches for you. And people keep telling me to try online dating... oh some little solace that I was right, haha.

Maybe not, wonkwonk. :)

It's upsetting...

I think I've always been a late bloomer in life, in every respect of my life. But, as I get older, and realizing things I want to do before I, well, die... well, before it's too late... anyway, as I realize these things, I could've been doing it all along, if I was just a little smarter.

Just a little.

And that really sucks.

Well, it's up to me to fix that right? Well, here's to tomorrow!

In progress

Cracks me up EVERYTIME...